Exhausted

Here I am in 30 minutes left before my preparation to go to work. Now I’m listening to the Yellowcard - Only One.

Trying to forget all things related to work. I am loaded by lots of things right now. Related to my job in Human Capital division, I don’t know whether I can survive in the company I’m working now. There’s just many things I can’t handle all alone. (Sum 41 - With Me)

I don’t like complaining, even in my own writing. 

I promise to handle it as best as I can do. I believe I was put here for a reason. To fix things that ain’t right. 

Enjoyment in Heaven

Just had a night shower soon after I got home. Today was a bussssyyyy day... Since morning, I was in the office preparing all the documents for tomorrow’s training. Tomorrow will be the first Basic Skill Store Crew Training as a Selection. Yeah, started tomorrow, my department (Learning & Development Dept) will be the decision maker, deciding whether or not the applicants can be the Alfamart’s employees, or in this case, store crews or assistant chief of stores. Quite much to do, yet it’s challenging. Can’t wait for tomorrow. 

Today was also Au’s birthday. Ayu Meliasari. Wish her all the best. We gathered in Au’s house after I finished work. I was invited via BBM. Ui, Kak Uci, Cika, Melti and I came to her house and we had so much fun. Meeting college friends after a “long time no see” makes you realize how much your life has changed. However, it does not change the way we tease each other, or in other words, teasing me. I always become the subject of teasing. I don’t know why. But I’m glad to see they laugh. Isn’t it great to make people happy because of us?

Last night, when we were in our liqo’, we talked about the enjoyment we would get in heaven. Kak Yessi said that even in the lowest state of heaven, each of us would get 80 maids who will take care of us and fulfill all of our requests. In heaven, there is no old woman since all women will be forever young and beautiful. Even the prettiest angels will be jealous to women who enter the paradise. There, we will not get bored. Forever happy.

But, how to get there?

Yes, the enjoyment of Paradise is surrounded by many difficult things. It is related with problems, trials, sadness, sorrows and patience.If there is no such things, then the paradise will lose its value. 

Nothing Lasts Forever

This morning is one of the best weekends I ever had. Simple, not going anywhere, had nothing to catch for deadlines, still on my bed, got a glass of warm chocolate milk made by my mother and on top of all, pouring rain. My happiness. This happiness leads me to open up my laptop and write. 

When I looked out the window, I realized something about time. Time, the most precious thing a human in this world has, sometimes distracting. When you are enjoying a moment so bad, you feel like you don’t wanna move. You just want to stand up there, freeze the moment and enjoying every second of the time. Yeah, every second of the time, which means that the moment is not standing still. The moment keeps going, so does the time. 

I was thinking, why can’t we stop the time for the moment we enjoy the most? So there is no ticks in every second. I just want the watch stops everytime I got my most favorite moments. 

Maybe this can be the answer:               Nothing lasts forever.

We still live in this world, which is just for a while, like a bus stop. It is not a destination, it is a test. It is just passing by. Our real destinations are either heaven, or hellfire. I always remember one quote that once said by my trainee, “Living in this world is like water that flows in our throats, just a while, very fast.” Eternity only belongs to Allah, and eternity for us, is in the here after.